Here come the another new year.....
It is 2011 now.....
I been out of school and study outside for 2 years.......
As usual, I am now still studying......in college......
but I dont know why today.........
I had a feeling that I am lost.......

I am struggling........
struggling in study.......(as everybody is in now)
struggling for exams and quizes.......
struggling for good results.........
struggling for doing well in clinical.........
struggling for gaining more knowledge.......
struggling for being understanding to patient.......
struggling for providing what best for patient........

Feeling of cant breathe.......
What am I struggling for???
It keep asking me in my mind......

for the future???
In common sense , YA

is it so important to have a good result or a good performance????
In social thinking , YA

if you dont have that good result to certified that you are doing well in this few year training,then you are worthless????
In employee thinking , YA

IS THIS THE FACT???
The fact that you have to be the top one then you will have a bright future......
if you are not the top one, you will lose your bright future......
or maybe you will been facing more hardship in your future career.......