This is a brand new year for me,
maybe for the others, this year is just an another new year that will only passed by,
but,it is not the same for me...
In this year,
I am going to graduate...
In this year,
It is the year that I finish my Diploma in Nursing...In this year,
I am going to be 21 years old...
In this year,
I am going to have a real career...
In this year,
I am going to be an employee,a social worker as all the adults does...
In this year,
It is the last time I am going to be with my Class 2012 course mates in Adventist...
In this year,
I am going to step into another stages of life...
I have to think about my future,
What am I going to do after this,
Whether I want to maintain as a Diploma or further the study,
Which scope am I going to further study in...
It is very new and very adventurous year for me,
I feel very nervous in accepting this transformation...
I feel like I am not yet getting ready for this,
It turns out too fast...
3 years,
It may be long, and it may be short,
But it changed me a lot...
From my thoughts,
My thinkings,
My attitudes,
My observation,
My judgements,
My opinions,
My confidence,
How should I dress,
How should I communicate and explain,
How should I manage myself well in health,
and even how do I carry myself in the public...
I got a lot of uncertainty in this Year,
What am I going to be?
What am I going to do?
Where am I going to do?
Althought everybody can answer my stupid questions that,
I am going to be a nurse,
I am going to taking care of the sick and needed,
I will be in a Hospital...
But these is not what I mean,
It is the feeling about the uncertainty,
Maybe I will be okay when I am going through that process without thinking anything much...
Now I am in the March,
2 more months for me to go through the process of management,
2 more months for me to be a student nurse...
I got the butterflying feeling in my stomach,
and I also dont know how to explain the wierd feeling that I am going through...
It can be said as nervous,
but not as nervous as we always gone up to stage and have a performance,
It can be said as foreseek to the new things,
but sometimes I even ever think of just want to stop at there and dont change at all,
Maybe in the future I will be understand what is that feeling all about....
