TIRED

dont know why.....
i am feeling tired....
why????
am i choosing the wrong road???
did nursing suite me actually???
i myself didnt know about it....
feeling of misserable....
what should i do???
why i cant perform well in THAT ward???
is she telling me the truth???

"year 2 sem 2 already!!!!still showing performances like year 1 sem 1!!!!i didnt know how you gone through all this until now!!!!"

this words keeps circling in my mind....
i also keep on evaluating myself of my performances in ward....
what she said is truth or it was a harsh word of beeing dislike me....
to punish me....
because i had made her collegue beeing scolded by boss.....
because of a little wrong mistake i had done on monday.....
i am very sorry about the things i had done....
i didnt mean it.....
i didnt know it would end up like this....
i am really very sorry....

can you all please dont treat people like a stupid person????
you all been gone through the same things as i do now....
as a student....training....
from a lay man until now is a professional....
but you all became so ego and full with pride....

can you all please be more patience in guiding us.....
we tried to communicate with you all....
but you all like a queen,head healding so high above,we feel that you all cant heard what we said....
if we tried to tell again, you all will show your unpleasant faces to us.....
how dare we want to communicate with you all????

i pray now to GOD,that YOU bless me this coming week that i am working in afternoon shift in THAT ward.....
please keep me having a strong spirit in physically and mentally....
that week is my last week in THAT ward....
pray GOD that i would not have any trouble in THAT ward anymore....
please keep me strong in facing all the crisis of the future....